Are You Seeking God’s Peace But Can’t Find It?
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Are you seeking God’s peace but can’t find it? The answer as to why you can’t find it may surprise you. In fact, it may even make you a little angry or possibly confused. I am going to share with you why you haven’t found God’s peace if you have been looking for it and can’t find it.
As a young girl, I accepted Jesus into my heart. My dad was a Sunday School teacher and I was raised in church for as far back as I can remember. I remember thinking as a small girl that I loved Jesus and I wanted to do nothing but do right by Him.
By the time I was 13 that all changed. I started hanging around kids that were not the best influence and I slowly fell away from God. I knew what I was doing was wrong but I had other plans and honestly, I didn’t care at the time. My thought process was that God wasn’t coming back anytime soon so I had plenty of time to do what I wanted.
Now I am in no way making excuses for myself, however, I was a child and my mind was not fully developed yet. But I still knew better. As time passed by and I got older I missed that presence in my life. The presence I felt when I was younger. I wanted God’s Peace so I started seeking it out. I went to church a couple times and I prayed all the time. That is one thing I never gave up was prayer.
I have always prayed even during times I didn’t think God was even listening. To me, praying is talking to God just like I would talk to my husband or one of my parents. Talking to God always gave me a way to vent with-out sharing with the rest of the world.
The Peace of God Didn’t Seem To Exist
By the time I was in my early 20’s my life was in complete shambles. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. It seemed that every month I was on a new path to find myself. Nothing I did though helped me find the peace of God. There was actually a time when I swore God hated me which goes against everything in the Bible.
Are you searching for the peace of God? I’m telling you what, I would read my Bible, chapters at a time yet I did not understand a word of it. I went to church a few times and often I felt like the pastor was talking directly to me but still…. where was God’s Peace? It was almost non-existent to me.
Why I Couldn’t Find God’s Peace and You Can’t Either
On February 5th, 2009 I gave birth to my son whom is now 8 years old. On that night I had already been in labor for something like 26 hours. I remember it like it was yesterday. The nurse came in to check me and informed me that I was dilated to a 10 and it was time to push.
I was terrified. I had been terrified for that entire week leading up to my scheduled inducement. I just had a feeling something bad was going to happen, like death and it almost did.
Long story short I went back for an emergency c-section. After my son was born I hemorrhaged and lost 7 liters, yes 7 liters of blood. They had to do a full hysterectomy to save my life and still they weren’t sure that would save my life. I was in ICU for 3 days afterward on life support. My son was a week old when we went home.
You would think that the doctors’ telling me I shouldn’t be alive and no one lives through that should have allowed me to find God’s Peace but it didn’t. I was more thankful and I believed that it was God who saved me that night on that operating table but I just couldn’t find peace with God.
It wasn’t until 2015 nearly 6 years later that I found God’s Peace. It turns out I was seeking God’s Peace but couldn’t find it because I didn’t really want to and the truth is neither do you if you can’t find it. I know that is a blow to the face, right? It was for me but in a good way.
Looking back, I can remember times when I would sit and cry to God “Why? Why is this happening to me? Why?” Again the truth be told nothing was happening to me it was happening for me. I just couldn’t see the dots being connected at the time.
I remember the day, in March of 2015, I was sitting on my bed and I had a heart to heart talk with God. That was the day I found God’s Peace. I found it because I opened my heart and I sincerely wanted to seek His peace. From that moment forward, I live by the words
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I found God’s peace simply because I wanted to. If you can’t find it, it is because you don’t really want to. Look at it from this perspective, do you or someone you know smoke or drink? Have you or they tried to give the habit up but failed? It is because you or they didn’t really want to give it up.
Another example is people who claim they won’t go to church because the church is filled with hypocrites and gossipers. The truth is they don’t really want to go, it has nothing to do hypocrites or gossipers. Maybe there is a habit they know is wrong and God will make them feel uncomfortable until they do something about it.
In all honesty, if you’re not going to church because of hypocrites and gossipers, those hypocrites and gossipers are a little bit closer to God than you are. Don’t allow anyone to stand between you and God’s Peace.
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